bits and pieces

something's gotten into me that i now watch sports more often, flip through sports/car mags more often, reading about sports more often. hahahaha. perhaps it's all the beginning of my quest for a more interesting lifestyle. for the past n years, my life has revolved around... nothing. quite sad to say. but what the heck, here i am changing. interesting. having seen a match of soccer saturday night, and watching the movie goal the next day aroused my interest for the sport. wish i could play it. i think im already quite late to learn any of those. esp that and maybe bball. tennis i think is faster. it doesnt need much of the movements that the two other sports require. tennis only asks you to run left to right and a bit to the front and back. i wish i could play it again. miss playing that. i just dont have anyone to play with so ive been resorting to the un-physical means of relaxing. oh well. maybe bec there's school. and i always see that as a reason for the failure to do any sport. or even go to the gym.

speaking of going to the gym. im slowly realizing how i must start working out. especially my -stomach-. that big flabby stomach. well it isnt that big yet. but my shirts are starting to expose the curve. it may have been due to too much eating or more frequent drinking. i dont mind gaining weight. but at least i hope even some small amount of weight i gain goes to my face. and not all to my belly. screw that... hmm. where and when do i work out? not really about being a loner (n, i think it's okay to go to the gym alone. but again, where and when. if i dont start working out, this is going to be a dizzzzzasssster in no time.

2 weeks... 2 weeks... i swear i cant wait to get out of school already. im getting a headstart now with the things i have to study. or so i think. i just dont wanna screw up my last ever finals, written or orals, in the ateneo. i know i have been ranting about this for the past couple of days. but i guess this is in everyone's mind right now. esp with all the hell theyre going through. good luck guys.

im still confused until now. although i have been thinking less about it. maybe its the school work. thank God for schoolwork. and if its all about uninterested-ness, then, i dont know. am i losing on this again? *sigh*. so i guess this is what she wants. if thats the way she thinks. if only i had the power to manipulate things. haha. bad wish i know. but that'd be pretty interesting. dont you think? if you could only manipulate the feelings of the person you like, but doesnt like you back, then it'd be heaven alas. however, it takes away all the the challenges entailed, which also makes it less interesting. and less fun. but hey, im only until a certain level of challenge. wait, i dont even think this qualifies for a challenge. when the girl doesnt like you, then it's not a challenge anymore. or maybe im just bein cynical. differences are difficult to reconcile. and thats something ive also been considering. yeah you like the person but there's also something that somehow pushes your far back and makes you think twice. but i could be wrong with what im thinking. oh well. so much for the lovelife.

party's coming up on the 3rd. yey. i want baileys there. and mike's. and gin? vodka? tequila? oh, mudslide. or just about anything. i just hope that as we graduate from college, we also get to graduate from beer at least to a certain degree. block q party people, agree? kellds, just like u told me. i need to move up the alcohol ladder. so do the other q people. well, maybe they already have n years ago, but let that party be the ceremony for formal 'moving up'. hahaha.

done for the night.