[sound tripping]

i was unusually sleepy this morning during the mass. it was weird coz from the first one till yesterday's mass, i was doing alright. was paying attention to what the priest was saying though i can no longer remember what was said. apparently as i was listening to the homily, my mind was also wandering off to some place. hmm.. so i guess there's no point in feeling bad that i wasn't able to pay attention to what he said this morning. it's just as good as listening but not understanding what was being said. hehe. see? my short attention span doesn't really help me in any way. (or does it?) well, it's not like i didnt really understand anything any of the priests said before. for the first few minutes, im very attentive to every single word uttered. after a while, forget that im attending the mass. haha. (listening to pare ko right now) my attention's always brought to some place where only my friends and i exist. hmmm... now i feel like i think too much about my friends. or maybe that's just because i love them too much that if there's something i should be thinking about, they come up as the first subject. (in a while i will be posting the words of pare ko. ive learned to love this song.)

Who will see the beauty in your life
And who will be there to hear you when you call
Who will see the madness in your life.
And who will be there to catch you if you fall.

*i know this aint pare ko, but anyway im listening to this song now... beautiful song. agree?

i have a slight inclination towards listening to christmas songs. whether sad or happy christmas song, i don't mind. for me, this season has always had such a positive energy that comes along with it. i don't know why. i guess when the Ber months come, as some radio stations begin playing christmas songs, we're always headed towards this yearning to feel happy. to feel excited. maybe it's the gifts. or the meeting with family members from manila or the province or as far as the united states.

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

or maybe it's simply the fact that after all these years, people have always associated christmas with happiness. that despite other people's destituteness, they still find a reason to be happy. (maybe not all of them.) at least, there's always that one time of the year where some people could be happy (or shadow their sadness through a momentary happiness brought by the season; or the worst they could do, pretend that they are happy.)

What I'm dying to say, is that
I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

*first, madonna's version. now sponge cola's. puta, astig tong version nila.

damn, i can't focus. the songs im playing are distracting me. aight, i guess it's better if i just post some of the songs' lyrics.

Let me take you to a place nice and quiet
Where there ain't no one there to interrupt
Ain't gotta rush
I just wanna take it nice and slow

And still I see no changes can't a brother get a little peace
It's war on the streets & the war in the Middle East
Instead of war on poverty they got a war on drugs
so the police can bother me
And I ain't never did a crime I ain't have to do
But now I'm back with the blacks givin' it back to you
Don't let 'em jack you up, back you up,
crack you up and pimp slap you up

ha, instead of putting the title of the songs, why don't we play a game? who can guess what songs i listened to?

At ikaw ay kaagad sumusuko
Konting hirap at munting pagsubok lamang
Bakit ganyan, nasaan ang iyong tapang
Naduduwag, nawawalan ng pag-asa
At iniisip na natutulog pa, natutulog pa ang Diyos
Natutulog ba?

last one...

Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry