sayang

the only regret i have right now is not being more active than i couldve been in the past. just having read an update from someone about a party, makes me think how much i'd love to have organized/headed such an event. seems like i dont have any more chance of doing such a thing. *sigh* slowly, im realizing how much i like to head an entertainment project. i don't have all the creative juices required of a head of such a project (or anyone who's responsible for things like the design, theme etc.) but certainly i know it'd be very interesting to do that. especially if it were to be a big event. could it possibly be something i can do for my work? so what field handles that? hmm...

blah blah blah

for a moment, i was just staring at the screen. i was trying to come up with ideas on how i'm gonna do my project but maybe my brain's already sleeping at 1:30 in the morning (when it's not supposed to just yet) that there was the complete absence of what i needed. sigh.

american idol finale was again televised tonight. just the performance night. i totally totally miss that show. (and singing too). i'm on the verge of being a desperado to sing out loud.

my org's thinking of joining this interorg dance competition. it got my interest. haven't really danced (the decent dance) in a while. when was the last, high school? this could be my chance again of exercising my bones. aging sure has some deterrents. this is one of the many(?). i mean, i dont do exercise. neither do i do sports. so perhaps thats the only physical activity left for me. if ever though i decided to join, i just hope training's not tough. or else... i'm gonna die soon.

(my eyes are starting to hurt. semi-'done' studying for theo LT. im not confident with what i know. seems like ive slacked off more than i studied for this test. and for just some nerdy and really unnecessary statement: i wonder how my qpi would turn out this sem now that i've become a slacker. a bum.)

ideas, ideas... anyone???

PS i think i fucked up my finance LT big time. it really was a fucked up test that would give me a fucked up score, which could translate into some fucked up 2nd-to-the-last qpi. *sigh* no matter what i get at the end, to hell with people, i'd still earn millions. like what i said in my yearbook profile, i'm most likely to give donald trump a run for his money.

so there goes some rubbish talk.

random thoughts

1. i decided that this one tops my list: i miss the 6-9pm tests. and
2. all the others that come along with it: review in the lib. solving endlessly the night before. eating out before the test. eating in the caf. cramming. worrying. flunking.
3. ajma ga was fun. JL was cute. :) chinita. hehe.
4. im kinda stressed with ama ga. sponsors...? yoohoo?
5. i wish i could do videoke again. miss singing out loud.
6. as my yahoo status went, i just recaptured my love, lost for a long time, for harry potter.
7. been relaxing a lot.
8. i need to sort out my priorities. now reading harry potter's more important than reading for a long test. haha.
9. getting hooked with desperate housewives. eva longoria, wow.
10. she/the girls remind me of sex and the city. maybe because they all look good? and there's sensuality, though not too much, in it?
11. most known among friends as this, this, this and this. yes, MOST. stupid.
12. been enjoying walking with my shoes. flashy. haha.
13. giddy over ____ kinda lost. but she's still the first thing that comes to mind when the word "- - - -" is said. cheesy.
14. all these thoughts are pretty senseless. haha. im back to being me. nothing serious nor deep to think about.
15. i no longer want to be a lawyer. reading on the constitution tonight made me realize that. or was it because ive been too preoccupied with reading potter that i deem other readings uninteresting? perhaps.
16. there's lotsa work next week. wish me luck.
17. this kind of blogging works better for me, i guess. no need to think about proper flow of thought and coherence (which if it were to be a test, i'd have flunked 99% of the time).
18. what's a good title for this blog? something that stays for a long time. been changing it, trying to make it sound deep and cool.
19. i think i already missed fantastic four. argh. such a sore loser.
20. finally... i'm done.

the quest for an exciting life through law school.

life seems to be cooperating with me in achieving my goal of having a more exciting life this last school year. a big change i can say in my study habits. just when i've already accepted my being a nerd a year or two ago, perhaps now, when called as such, i would vehemently deny it. i spend way less time in the lib (now it merely serves as a depository of my stuff and on some occassions of seeking for solitude, my mind-resting hangout place.) you see, lib as a hangout place, for many people, sounds so geeky and nerdy and all the disgusting notions associated with the place. but hey, i hang out there for completely different purposes. to aircondition, to chat, and to spot ;) . actually it's less of the latter. hehe. i rarely do that. anyway, when one's trying to battle with the neverending heat of the well-unappreciated extended summer, the best place to go to is the lib or, thing to do, to aircondition. hehe.

having gone to the tent last weekend for the book signing made me realize how much i have missed out on in the past. that instead of confining myself to the four corners of my room (FOR SOME TIME ONLY) or waiting for my feet to ache for endlessly wandering the mall, i should've done something else. sheesh. but oh well, no regrets, as it always should be. i'm not really going to narrate what had happened last weekend. the event was just helluvan event. puta!

after finding out that a friend of mine is going to law school, it also made me think twice about and question the path of my own future. where do i really want to be? what do i really want to be? corporate world or law? in the past, i've always had an inclination towards the two directions. i've always thought that either way, i'd be happy. but close to completing my management degree, it got me leaning more towards the corporate world option. it was just lately that i thought again about possibly going to law school.

but do i really want to be a lawyer? perhaps i wish to be there for the wrong reasons. or what are the wrong reasons anyway? until now i'm still deciding. part of me wants to pursue it. the bigger part of me though seems to be telling me that i'm not for that profession or that i'm merely forcing myelf to be there. it's just that, i can't picture myself studying about laws all day and all night. law school is something for the die-hard law fans and not just for anyone trying to find thrill in their lives or kill time. i understand that i once considered this as an end. but it never got into me to take this so seriously that would actually make me think about going to law school. oh well.

there goes my confused life. and yeah, an exciting one too.

eclectic about neil gaiman's visit.

i believe that this is a perfect time to blog. i have got lots of things to share to the people. what you will be reading several moments from now wasn't something i've gotten myself. it will be mainly just an interview he did and couple of entries from his journal.

transcript of his interview
(thanks to this person)

and here goes copied entries from his journal:

Tuesday, July 12, 2005
posted by Neil 7/12/2005
07:34:00 AM

I'm in Kuala Lumpur airport, where the lounge has free, working
wireless, so this is a very short post.Some Frequently Asked Questions from the
Philippines that I'm going to answer in haste.

1) The assumed name that Fully Booked registered me at the hotel under
was...

Mister Punch.

2) The pen I've mostly been using is a 1950s Omas flexinib. If you want one
like it it's cheaper to find old flexinib Watermans on eBay. The ink I've mostly
been using is Mont Blanc Bordeaux I got in Singapore. It's not my favourite ink
(I'm not a big Mont Blanc fan) but it's a decent colour and I love the bottle
design.

They're calling my flight.

____________

I go, farewell. Farewell, I go.posted by Neil 7/12/2005
12:58:00 AM

Okay. Leaving for the airport in a minute, in a thunderstorm of epic
proportions. And I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who made my
trip to the Philippines the most memorable trip ever. I'd thank you all
personally but there are several thousand of you, and my fingers would start to
hurt again.But thanks again to you all. And yes, I do want to come back.On to
Melbourne...

______________

Monday, July 11, 2005
Ten happy little fingers and they're mine all
mine...posted by Neil 7/11/2005
11:28:00 AM

There's nothing quite like coming back from a day of signing and
signing and signing and talking and talking and signing, to be met with several
thousand people pointing out that though my head thought "Leonard Cohen" my
fingers typed "John Cale".I do not blame my fingers. A number of times in the
last two days they have happily written inscriptions for people while my head
has struggled to catch up. "Gosh," I think. "It's a copy of Good Omens. What are
some of the things I write in Good Omens?" while my fingers have already
efficiently written most of Burn This Book. Probably they just got confused by
"Hallelujah" or something.I don't think I've ever been more exhausted at
any point in a signing tour than I am right now. (Having said that, I don't remember ever having felt so loved by so many people.)
But I get to sleep until I wake up and that's so good...PS. I think I'm
now addicted to calamansi juice.

___________

Sunday, July 10, 2005
"My friends are gone and my hair is
grey..."posted by Neil 7/10/2005
07:16:00 PM

I woke up with a line from John Cale's song "Tower of Song" going round
in my head "...I ache in the places where I used to play...". I ache pretty much
everywhere at this point, although I'm still enjoying myself. Still paying my
dues in the Tower of Words, I suppose.So yesterday I did the local MTV (an MTV
station so far out of the cultural mainstream that it still plays rock videos,
how cool is that? I think they'll put the interview out on Friday here) and some
more interviews and, after finally conquering the evil of the hotel's printers,
successfully printed some ANANSI BOYS out. And then I read to a large crowd, and
signed for about grateful 600 people (including, at the end of the night, the
ones who had stuck around hopefully outside in the heat but didn't have line
numbers, although they only got a signature).The FAQ line is completely filled
with messages from people in Manila saying "when I got to the front of the line
I didn't say anything/burst into tears/said something stupid but what I wish I'd
said was....", all of which are really nice and none of which I'm posting
here.And instead I'm going to get up and get dressed and fight with the evil
printers one last time before going off to the morning's first interview. (You
must imagine me on one side, all early-morning bleary, holding a golden sword of
truth and righteousness, while these printers lumber menacingly over the hill
towards me).

_____________

Saturday, July 09, 2005
In the Tentposted by Neil 7/09/2005 12:54:00
PM
In the Philippines, the people are enthusiastic on a level
that makes the Brazilians look reserved and polite. They shout very
loudly when they're happy, too. There's a noise that a few thousand of the
locals make when they all shout at once to let you know they're happy to see you
that made me finally understand the idea of a wall of sound...Apparently over
3000 people turned up to see me, although only 700 tickets guaranteeing you a
signature were given out (and had all gone well before lunchtime). (Which I
still don't quite understand as I was told it would be limited to 500. But there
you go.) It began late, due to overrunning tv interviews, followed by Printer
Hell, when I couldn't get something to print out on the hotel printer, so I had
to read it on stage from the laptop -- which left me feeling I'd made the right
choice in getting a laptop that weighs about 2lb. So the event began a little
after 4:00pm. A short ANANSI BOYS reading, a short Q&A, and then I
signed...I stayed till everyone still there in the tent was done -- I finished
signing for the last people in line, all of us more than somewhat shellshocked,
around 1:25 am.Goodnight.

i was lucky to have seen pat at the tent. since i had to leave when mr gaiman was still signing the 300th person, i just made him a pretty good deal. gave him my stub, which will be prioritized the day after (at promenade greenhills) but in return, he had to have my book signed. and so i waited and waited for it...

such a fucking cool drawing of sandman at my book. haa. i'm overwhelmed!

PS i don't regret having stayed at the place for 10 1/2 hours and not get to meet him personally. all the fun of listening to his reading an excerpt from anansi boys and getting a sneak peek of an upcoming movie he wrote called mirrormask, it was priceless. no regrets of missing the AMa meeting. serious.

PS2 saw someone there. hehehe. nice.