sentimiento de asukal

im sort of back to the habit of reading other people's blogs (not reallt those of people i dont know) after grabbing a copy of businessweek this afternoon. their main feature was blogs and how it can help corporations. i havent read that part yet. im still at the news section part. some ive read were pretty interesting such as:

1. sanyo's new ceo being a former journalist and unexperienced when it comes to corporate matters.
2. the possible eruption of an anti-government demonstration, a shift from anti-japan to that as what happened in 1919 (if im not mistaken) and that in tiananmen square.
3. the competition between airbus and boeing with regard to getting india's favor to acquire planes from them.
4. and some others...

while i was on my way here to lucena, being inside the l300 van of my uncle, once again, i gave my future some thought. while my plan for senior year seems to have been settled, where i will be after it still eludes me. all that i have in mind is work HERE and get an MBA subsequently. but what about opening myself up to other options, which might even be better? work abroad and get mba there? is it even a good idea? although ateneo's one of the leading universities in the philippines, i dont know how much recognition it will get abroad, i.e., how far it can get me. it's a pleasure and indeed a great pleasure to be spending my 4 years of college education in the ateneo. for now, perhaps the only certainty i have in my hand, is that i wont be landing on a sucky job or if things get all too mad and fate uncooperative, no job at all. but what the hell, i have faith in myself and in the name of my school. isnt that just the primary reason why i enrolled here? all in the name of future, all in the name of money.

i decided to write on this now after reading blogs of two people who are abroad now. they seem to be leading such wonderful, independent lives. perhaps it's all in my desire to live a life different from how it has always been. constant reliance on my parents financially isn't teaching me to be financially responsible. (but it's allowing me to live quite an extravagant life, though not to the full extent.) just when it's the most important thing to be responsble in. i suppose it is in the assurance that even when i get stuck penniless, i can always run to them for help. knowing that they have never been close-fisted (except for the times when i was after some unnecessary spending). anyways, perhaps it's in the joy of narrating a story of being a complete stranger in another country, of living a life full of adventures- those times when you're on your own, not knowing how to get to work, which transport means to take, of being alone, of being far from everyone, of meeting new people, making friends and being friends with them, of finding a set of friends, with whom time can be spent to divert the attention from constant loneliness due to homesickness to the feeling of being at home- this time with a new batch of friends, while you attempt to build a deeper bond with them, of being exposed to a totally new and different culture.

to be exposed to such might at first be shocking, fearing. but perhaps there is joy underneath the challenge to overcome such surprise and fear. it's the adventure, it's the new life, it's simply everything ive said above. everything just swiveling around each other because all these, no matter how different, just form one sort of experience- that of being away from real home.

PS im looking forward to this one.