traumas of the past

i guess now im already tired of posting the death toll post-earthquake-and-tsunami, almost a week after. though im tempted, i choose to just stop. my postings won't help in a big way that i'd want them to. only it will make myself and others aware of how this seems to be a truly devastating one, not only for me but more so, and to a way greater extent, pain's tenfold, for the ones left by the victims. CNN and BBC still are continuously feeding the globe with information with regard to the toll, the debatable issues such as US' being stingy (which i find a bit ridiculous), or whichever really counts as the best focal point at this moment- the corpses and the number of victims or the struggle each survivor has to face. where will they live, what they're gonna eat, how will they cope. With other questions such as, is it still safe to habituate in those nearby places considering the diseases lurking around? How will these people carry on considering the traumatic state the catastrophe has put them in? How long will it take them to move on?

this year's been relatively quiet. we had only few firecrackers to deal with. it took us an hour and a half though. that was because we took it slowly. this year didnt compare to the past where the sending away of the spirits started at 1030, ended at 130 or later as opposed to this year which started at 1130. one hour makes a big diff. and consider how each passing moment was an opportunity to fill the place with the roaring noise created by the firecrackers. We were literally making noise. But this time, it was just one short holler. nevetheless, it was still as loud. why was that so? trauma from last year's fire.

what the hell's up with all these traumas?!

everyone's up for a fresh new start. but it doesn't mean everone's gonna have a blast. maybe a lot of us will be in some deep shit. but i could be wrong. it might be a good year for all of us. nah. thats BS. it was never a good year for everyone. good year for some, yeah. but never for everyone. something will always come up to screw someone's life up.