Oops... ++

My waiting was put to an end when finally i was able to go to powerplant this afternoon. i spent an hour and a half inside fully booked just going around looking for books that could possibly satisfy the inner geek in me. i was targetting upside down by eduardo galeano but i wasn't lucky enough to have gotten the book . (maita introduced me to that book during our last meeting for IR. hhh... i miss that class. that was like one of the most interesting classes i've had ever since.) neither was i able to avail myself of the calvin and hobbes comic book. it felt frustrating that they didn't have the books i was after. so... World on Fire: How Exporting Free Market Democracy Breeds Ethnic Hatred and Global Instability by Amy Chua and Snoopy/Peanuts served as the replacements. good enough i guess...

Im done with the first two chapters of the former and so far, it still has my interest. i must say that it's fascinating to look at globalization in another way. well, not globalization per se but the process that comes along with it... as the title suggests, free market AND democracy breed ethnic hatred and global instability. some of us have been told how globalization is such a positive force that with a neoliberal approach, the world's being drawn towards salvation. that each state's level of poverty will go down and that as soon as everyone gives in to the phenomenon, they will see the sweet effect. but what the author is suggesting is that, instead of those changes, what we've always thought will be the solution to the world could actually be the more reinforcing problem. she used the term market-dominated minority to refer to the few ethnicities ruling over the native majority. eg. Chinese in Malaysia, Thailand and/or Burma. it was mentioned several times how these Chinese make up only 1 to 2 percent of the entire population of these countries yet they seem to have the biggest grip on their businesses as they control 70% of the private businesses. and where does democracy come in? when the unheard of majority starts to speak up against the issue of how people of different ethnicity (i.e. Hutus and Tutsis, Chinese and Burmese, Chinese and Filipinos... and the list goes on...) are controlling most of the businesses and becoming richer... at the former's expense. Upon realizing the growing gap between the two and how they seem to be taken advantage of, they turn to one unified belligerent crowd. the idea of freedom alone is brilliant, but the idea of freedom being used as insurgents isn't. anyway. like i said, im only in chapter two...

as i was on my way to cashier, i came across this book called pour all your hear on it (pictured as if being poured into a starbucks mug at the lower right of the cover.) at the back it said "... fans.." TING TING TING! i was called by the book! it was begging for me to get it... so i did. it narrates the story of starbucks' success. woohoo... now i have lots of books waiting in line to be read... i should finish them before xmas or before classes start in jan. ha!

about some serious stuff...

it is disappointing to see how a relationship which was once so tight turned into some regular, normal, bland one. as if best friends turned into mere acquaintances. many factors could have caused that- getting tired, finding a new one, misunderstanding, mistrust, and betrayal. among all of that, the last seems to be the most painful. no no no... i thought of something more painful. it's when party A presumes that party B is betraying him when in reality b isn't. that's as bad as being forsaken by a loved one for reasons one doesn't understand. it sucks big time if that happens. it's as if everything that's shared was obliterated. it's as if there was no sharing that eventuated in the first place. just because of one stupid presumption.

a friend's supposed to TRUST another one. apparently, only when the trust is broken should he stop trusting the other one. otherwise, it seems inappropriate to go ahead of it. it doesn't go like okay today i trust the person and tomorrow, i don't anymore. fine, trust is even less as fragile as a glass. you tap it the right way, the figure remains in shape. you tap it too hard, it breaks. trust doesn't need hard tapping. it might be put to test at some time but it just breaks so easily that sometimes you wouldn't even be aware it happened already. but then if it isn't your fault, you dont cry over it like a child. you just tell yourself, oops. but the ooops won't bring it back to its original shape. even if you try to fix it and succeed, it wont be as beautiful and flawless anymore. this time, there's nothing you cant do about it.