i dont feel xmas season yet. it's as if im looking forward to the break as one regular sembreak instead of xmas break, wherein im supposed to feel happy because of the gifts, the cool breeze, the gifts, the great mouth-watering food and the usual refreshing feelings that come along with the holiday. without the xmas jingles being played on the radio occassionally as well as some lanterns on display in some areas where we pass, i won't feel like it's almost here. i just thought that whenever october or november comes, there must be this automatic response of the emotions that shall remind you (or the kids), hey, santa's coming. (but still no snow's falling. partly to remind you too that you're still here in the philippines. hhh...) but with the work coming, i don't think ill be able to fully enjoy my long-awaited xmas break. (most likely, it will be for marketing.) im somehow uncomfortable thinking that someday, i might just look at xmas as another local holiday which i never really paid attention and gave significance to except for the fact that we become free for a day or two. (unless some cruel bitchy teacher decides to dump you with some oh-so interesting school work.)

i havent got gifts for my friends yet. (i only got for my nephew and niece.) i was suposed to get them sunday but it took me a long time to fit the shirts i thought were nice. i got two for myself. (no more shopping for me until next year.) i guess food for the gods will do for the meantime. id just have to grab something for my closest friends. time's tough nowadays. you don't get to save as much as you want. especially when you're very much concerned with your future, that you think spending a bit for gifts to give to some insignificant person will just kill you and leave you bankrupt. pockets empty. that's why spend for the best people only. though it doesn't mean that people who wont be receiving anything aren't special. people just dont have enough free cash to shell out. yes. thats true. even the richest kids don't always have money to spend.

opman test finally over. hahaah. cheating galore. my ass was just saved by some visiting luck. ive been slacking off lately. just figured im already tired from working. yeah, i get tired too. im still human. it's not that i worked too much before. im not like kat. sheesh, she's one superwoman. hat's off to her. hmmm... at this very moment, im just thinking about them. my great friends. it's almost xmas break, hence, id miss them. id like to think how they're like family to me already. despite all the mockery that i receive from them every single day, thats perfectly fine. it's as if that's their prerogative. hahaha. yeah, so no other people can treat me that way. im biased. hahaha. fun never ends when im with them. feels good to have them around.

sad to hear that fpj's gone. i was sort of laughing at it pa that gma's competitor's gone. but after getting my share of the news delivered by on-the-way-to-becoming-a-tribute-to-fpj news programs, my perception changed. hhhh... oh well, life's like that. what's funny was i didnt' know he was in coma until last night. the news of his death arrived faster than his being in coma. (gretchen: yung father ng industriya is... parang he's gone... DUH HE IS GONE!!! what do you mean parang?) i just saw abs-cbn's video tribute to fpj. it seems to me they're becoming pros in doing this. is this another political strategic move? or are they doing this because they really have compassion towards the people? oh well, we don't know what's on their mind.

im tired of typing. i'm off to reading somebody else's blog.