same old brand new year.

in less than 3 hours' time, it's new year. and i still do not intend to create any resolutions for myself. i never belived in them for they are bound to be broken in the end. at least, i dont end up looking like a hypocrite for wanting to change myself, for the better.

school's back in like 4 days. two oral exams coming up within the first week of classes. what an exciting way to welcome the new year. or stated in another way, what a way for ateneo to make me feel like a real senior.

still not done downloading shows and converting to make them ipod-compatible. until now, im still in the process of filling in my pod with shows and movies. got 15gb more to exhaust. i highly doubt i can exhaust the entire memory in like, the 4 days remaining. at least, now, my problem's not how i can squeeze in everything, as had been the case with my nano. darn. annoying that toy story 2 doesnt seem to work well when converted. only the audio comes out. maybe it's some new way to enjoy the "movie". as of now, i have toy story 1, monsters, inc. and coyote ugly ready for watching plus tons of short pixar clips, a gazillion music videos, and a couple of sex and the city, the OC and friends.

have re-read handouts for philo. theo's coming up. plus one more homework for finance. and... a lot more studying.

still no resolution.

pre-graduation farewell to ateneo.

welcome back myself. my absence in this abode for almost 2 months somehow tells you how busy my last sem in school has been. or how lazy i have been in updating this. christmas has just ended. it was my last christmas as a student. i can't imagine how i would be spending next year's ber months, anticipating my favorite holiday of all. i cant even picture where i'd be at that time. it seems to me that my life is so void of direction that graudation would end everything. i know. it sounds so tragic. but perhaps this is the case for many of us seniors. excluding of course those who have already secured themselves jobs. at least, they can now afford to slack off and just dilly-dally around while most of us still have to struggle to create some impressive remarks on our transcripts. despite my confidence in myself and the belief that i am good enough to be hired by some big company out there, of course, it is still they who decide if they're gonna get me or not. and not to forget my tendencies to screw up in interviews. until now, i actually still am confused whether i really want to follow my finance track or be somewhere else. i mean, as of now, i still have no regrets for taking this minor. despite the fierce battle that i still have to face, given my three finance electives, i know that given the chance to reconsider, i would still take this minor. the bigger problem is, i cant seem to hold myself from being too arrogant about being an atenean. i have my own expectations of what kind of work i want and how much i want to receive as my first pay. unknowingly, i have grown this (substantiated) arrogance in myself. which is both good and bad.

i take pride in having gone to the ateneo and done well, at least in my own standards. even at this point where i am already deprived of the chance to get even the lowest, but nevertheless still distinct, latin honors, i still can't be any more proud that i am graduating from this institution. i dont have even the slightest regrets of deciding to enter this university. as the orsem line goes, "no other university does it the way we do". it can't be any truer. now that is school spirit. haha.

as my last december in the ateneo, i decided to attend, while i can, the simbang gabi in the church of the gesu. there was no better feeling than to celebrate with ateneo friends and "family". (now all of a sudden, my "family" has expanded to include anyone who once in their life had been an atenean.) everything was so beautiful. the insides of the church and everything that surrounds it (i.e. the bel field filled with bright lights, the vendors and the other things that make up the ateneo). it also felt good to be listening to the jesuits and their homilies- fr johnny go, fr. dacanay, fr. danny huang and the rest who have shared their words with us. it felt so solemn. so holy. so Godly. it was healing to listen to the different groups who sang the beautiful church songs- bukas palad, dulaang sibol, ateneo glee club and others... that's one thing i wouldnt be able to do anymore next year. hmmm, maybe that's my only regret. not having attended simbang gabi there, in my early years in the ateneo.

this is also my last chance to work for my beloved org, the Ateneo Management Association. i'd miss the pressure of having to raise money for the projects. and leading my members. and constantly bugging them to send in their updates to me. my (first and) last year in the said org has been the most wonderful. the experience was unbelievable. it has gained me much more experience than what my previous years in the ateneo had given me. i think. it has given me friends much more than i had expected. people there are so wonderful. yihee. hahahaha. can i work for one more year???

this is pretty much my pre-graduation farewell to the ateneo.

drama. shit. haha.